Tuesday, December 16, 2014

Kehilangan Awak... Part 2

Awak....
Banyak yang ingin saya nukilkan tapi...
Saya bukan tidak mampu..
Namun biarlah saya pendamkan segalanya..
Apa yang telah terjadi semasa kita bercuti...
Biar saya simpan jauh dalam memori..
Awak...
Maafkan diri saya sepenuhnya...
Saya lemah dan tidak sekuat awak...
Saya berhadapan dengan banyak perkara seorang diri...
Awak... 
Saya rindukan awak..
Saya sayangkan awak....
Saya tidak pernah membenci awak...
Saya rindukan masa kita berdua..

Harap awak pun begitu...

Saturday, December 6, 2014

For u... Awak

"Thinking Out Loud"

When your legs don't work like they used to before
And I can't sweep you off of your feet
Will your mouth still remember the taste of my love?
Will your eyes still smile from your cheeks?

And, darling, I will be loving you 'til we're 70
And, baby, my heart could still fall as hard at 23
And I'm thinking 'bout how people fall in love in mysterious ways
Maybe just the touch of a hand
Well, me—I fall in love with you every single day
And I just wanna tell you I am

So honey now
Take me into your loving arms
Kiss me under the light of a thousand stars
Place your head on my beating heart
I'm thinking out loud
That maybe we found love right where we are

When my hair's all but gone and my memory fades
And the crowds don't remember my name
When my hands don't play the strings the same way
I know you will still love me the same

'Cause honey your soul could never grow old, it's evergreen
And, baby, your smile's forever in my mind and memory
I'm thinking 'bout how people fall in love in mysterious ways
Maybe it's all part of a plan
Well, I'll just keep on making the same mistakes
Hoping that you'll understand

But, baby, now
Take me into your loving arms
Kiss me under the light of a thousand stars
Place your head on my beating heart
Thinking out loud
That maybe we found love right where we are

So, baby, now
Take me into your loving arms
Kiss me under the light of a thousand stars
Oh, darling, place your head on my beating heart
I'm thinking out loud
That maybe we found love right where we are

Thursday, December 4, 2014

None....

Huhuhu...

When love scars, it cuts deep. The pain isn’t easily forgotten and usually cannot be willfully forgotten. When you hurt the woman you love enough, she won’t come back to you. And because you still love her, you wouldn’t take her back even if she asked you to.

You don’t trust yourself not to hurt her again and even if you did, she wouldn’t trust you not to hurt her again. Relationships are built on trust and you shattered her trust.

Chances are, you both have bruises that have never fully healed and likely will never fully heal. And that’s just something you decided that you’ll have to live with. Why?

Because you really don’t have any other options. You just hope that the two of you find others to love so you can think about each other less and so you don’t have to worry about her happiness anymore.

You wait in hopes that new love can take the place of the old — which it can. But that doesn’t mean you will ever stop loving each other. Some people will love each other until the day they die, spending the majority of their lives apart. And so is the darker side of love.

Wednesday, December 3, 2014

Luahan hati saya ... Awak....

Awak…saya merasakan… 
Diri ini sudah tidak bermakna…buat diri awak… 
Namun masih menjadi pesoalan… 
Mengapa awak…bertindak sedemikian… 
Awak…janganlah awak benci… 
Pada cinta…yang telah awak berikan… 
Selama ini…dan janganlah awak merasa jauh… 
Pabila awak dekat dengan diri ini… 
Berilah peluang pada saya… 
Untuk saya membuktikan cinta ini… 
Pada awak… 

Kehilangan awak .... Part 1

Awak...
Dah 2 tahun 7 bulan kita bersama dan selama 1 tahun sebulan kita tinggal berdua...

Awak... Joyjoyahko...
Saya minta maaf...
Atas kesalahan besar saya terhadap awak...
Saya malu dengan awak...
Saya mohon maaf awak...
Saya tak tahu nak cakap macamana...
Saya sunyi tanpa awak...
Saya rindukan awak...
Saya sakit awak... Sakit sangat...
Sebab saya x boleh maafkan diri saya sendiri...

Awak... Saya berdoa agar awak dilembutkan hati... 
Untuk memaafkan saya...
Saya berdoa agar awak juga dilembutkan hati...
Untuk menerima saya sebagai kawan...

Awak...
Saya risaukan awak...
Saya benar2 tertekan bila awak mendiamkan diri...
Ya saya faham... Awak perlukan ruang untuk beraendiri...
Tapi awak block semua nombor saya...
Seolah2 awak tak mahu hubungi saya lagi...

Awak... Janganlah macam tu...
Saya tahu awak tak kan memaafkan saya..
Tapi awak.. Janganlah biarkan saya terseksa dengan investment tu...
Awak... Saya tahu saya kehilangan awak...
Tapi saya tak sanggup hilang dengan persahabatan ini...
Awak... Saya jugak tahu awak pasti mbenci diri saya ini...
Tapi saya tak sanggup awak terus melenyapkan rasa sayang awak pada saya...

Awak... Saya juga merasai apa yang awak rasai kerna... Hingga saat ini saya sukar memaafkan diri saya sendiri...

Maafkan saya #joyjoyahko